"Grace doesn't seem fair until you need some" Bob Goff
That's a quote I've recently added to my book and as you can see from a recent Instagram post, I've left that page open on my desk this week, to remind me.
I'm struggling with offering grace lately.
And I'm not proud of that so I've spent time digging deep asking, "Why?".
The answers - if I'm honest with myself - are:
- People are dumb
- I was right
- People are lazy
- I was sanctimonious
- People are rude
- I was pacifistic
- & again, people are dumb
Also my environment doesn't expect me to be graceful, they expect me to do good work, whereas formerly as a church employee grace was a job description. Looking back, I kinda feel like it was easier to extend grace when I, (cough, clear my throat) um, had to.
Is grace grace if it's mandated?
Or is the beauty of grace revealed when it's a choice... when you choose to surrender your self righteous, judgemental attitude and lay it aside to offer grace?
I think so.
And I'm working on it. I'm trying to look past people's idiocy (it's like a phenomenon) and - full disclosure here - my own virtuousness.
I'm choosing grace.
Even when it seems unfair.
Because I bet no sooner I will hit publish on this piece and do something boneheaded and need someone to be gentle with me.