I'm sitting here this evening with an XL To-do list on my mind. Its sabotaging every ounce of mental energy I have. The dog is curled up at my feet and my coconut green tea is growing cold. 2 out of 5 kids are tucked in bed for the night and I'm at a threshhold- do I get up and work for two hours? Read until bed? Write? Twitter? Go through my Reader? Catch up on blogs?
No, the truth is I don't want to DO anything.
I think I need to just BE.
BE tired from a long day at the store.
BE free from the To-do list and all my concerns as to whether or not I'll get it done - in time, er, ever!
I need to
BE present in this moment.
I'm getting weary of always moving to the next thing.
I'm not thinking about stopping.
I just need to breathe.
I hope the blogs and stories that float in and out of my brain will be there when my fingers are able to reach out and taptaptap away at the keyboard.
But mostly I need to BE.
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