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Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Do you know what you would say?

If you had a chance to tell yourself then what you know now .... What would you say? I'm going to be 40 this year. I'm not freaked about it at all. 20 years ago I looked into my darling soon-to-be husband's eyes and told him I want to grow old with him. It seems I am lucky enough to be to do just that. I welcome aging. I'm not talking about 'letting myself go' or anything, I just understand it's happening. I can't stop it. I can't make myself get younger so why mourn what I can't change? Instead, I want to age well! I want people to think "Damn, she looks good!" Is that too much to ask? Are my expectations too high? All I know is 40 is not as scary as I thought when I was 25. Yep! I had a hard time on my 25th birthday. I kept thinking "30 is just around the corner!" I thought 30 was the end of all things fun for some reason.
Little did I know. And that's what I would tell myself. I'd say, "Self! It doesn't necessarily get worse. It can be better. You can be better. You will feel stronger. You will know so much more ... and be certain of so much less. The world is still beautiful and fun even with crows feet and loose eyelids. That you'll get a sense of your own style in your 30s. You'll know what you like - not what the store window propagates." That is some of what I would tell my younger self! What about you?